There are more ways of knowing than scientific knowing. I think this is the main disagreement between atheists and those who believe in God or something like God. 

Love is a way of knowing. I feel love, and I love, but you don’t see any scientific studies about love. There are studies about comfort, affection, romance, attachment, and relationships galore. But you can’t quantify love, and it’s mighty difficult to qualify it.

When you know something that transcends logic, you can’t explain it. You can’t explain love. Think about all the people you know who are in love with someone and you just don’t understand it. You don’t know why your friend picked that one person out of the whole universe, because from the outside it doesn’t make sense. That’s ok. Maybe it isn’t love, but that’s not up to us to decide. 

The love of God doesn’t make sense. It just is. When you know love, no one can tell you it doesn’t exist. Not your parents, not your friends, not yourself. You just know.

Faith is a way of knowing that also doesn’t make sense, but it doesn’t matter. It’s like skipping a step. You don’t need to figure it out. You just know faith. You have faith. It just is.


These are things I believe…

I will be updating this list whenever I think of something new. If I stop believing one of them, I will strike it and explain why my views changed.


Just because…

  • … it’s the way I do things, that doesn’t mean it is the right way or the only way.
  • … someone else says it, doesn’t mean it is true.
  • … it is difficult, doesn’t mean that it won’t be worth it.
  • … it is an easy choice now, doesn’t mean that it will make life easier later.
  • … I think someone would feel a certain way, doesn’t mean that they do.

No one can ever argue with my feelings, or tell me that they are wrong. My feelings are valid because I am feeling them.

There is no right and no wrong. Each action/decision has consequences which may make life easier, or harder for me or those around me.

Where I’m At

I met with my pastor yesterday. I had some questions. Each day I’m closer to being a theist. I don’t even know if I like those labels at all anymore, but I’m something else now. My view of God is so different from most people I have talked to. I guess there are as many interpretations of God as there are people. But I believe there is one force. I wouldn’t even say one God, because I think that many Gods and one God are one in the same. Many Gods are just each one facet of the overall force. Maybe I’m more of a Star Wars nerd than a Christian?
So I get the God thing. But I do not get the Jesus thing. Right now I’m closer to the Jewish interpretation of Jesus as a teacher.
  • Virgin Birth – You can call it what you want. It’s a pretty excellent excuse. I think there were a lot of “virgin” births, but I also think that strange things can happen.
  • Son of God – I get that he can be 100% divine and 100% human. Don’t ask me how, but I get it. Maybe some things are higher than math as we know it.
  • Atonement – don’t get it. Don’t get it at all. This is mostly what I was talking to my pastor about. He had some explanations, but I need to do some reading, thinking and going to church to figure it out.
I love feeling this slow growing of my faith. It is never more than I can handle. No one is pushing me to learn faster, or accept things at face value. Each day I feel closer to God and my essential self. I feel closer to being whole.
I never would have guessed in a million years that I would actually be going to church. I wanted to since I was a teenager. I wanted to believe. I wanted to have a place where I thought about life and the universe. I wanted that social structure around me. I was so far away from having faith. I was too independent. I feel like I can do so much more when I draw on the energy of God, the energy of everything around me.